ciggarettes

&

diet coke

128.6 lbs

gross

its been awhile i know

i had a pretty intense emotional break down the other night and wrote some amazing stuff that i thought i should share

YOUR NOT HAPPY WiTH YOU

YOUR NOT HAPPY BECAUSE YOUR FAT & UNDESiRABLE

YOUR JUST FELSH

FEED YOUR EMOTIONS WiTH HUNGER. LiVE OFF OF YOURSELF, FOR YOURSELF

HATE YOUR BODY TO LOVE AGAIN, SURViVE ON ONLY YOUR NEEDS.

TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR LiFE

MOVE WiTH iNTENTiON & PURPOSE.

LEAN ONLY ON YOURSELF, YOU NEED ONLY YOU FOR FUEL. LiVE TO WASTE AWAY THE MiSTAKES YOU MAKE.

LiVE FOR YOUR BODY

we decided to work things out

we arent back together yet but we are getting there

i've done amazing with the gym lately. but my intake needs improvement. v day didnt even effect my intake

oh yea and i got the ortho evera birth control patch. if any of yall use or have used it let me know if weight gain is a side effect. i put my first patch on on tuesday and havent noticed a change in appetite or anything. hopefully i wont explode in fat!

today was rough

not just food wise

everything.

ugh is my new favorite word

i did it to myself. which is this worst part about it

so i did soo good today you dont even know

and then

my boyfriend of over a year and i broke up

and i hit the ice cream pretty hard

but thats ok. being single will only motivate me to work out and look hot for the random guys that come along.

another screw me in the ass valentines day!